mindless ramblings of a christian emo boy plauged by drowsiness and the stress of life

it's nice to feel lovedthis is one of those nights where i just want to stay up so long the day become a blur and i forget it ever happened(but not really?)its funny how those that judge the quickest are also the quickest to become upset when judged."as for you i am also grateful...and i pray you find the peace you have been longing for." - hopesfall"fill this heart with the wisdom that brings me to my knees. let me show them what Your true love is" - Hopesfall"and know that by abstaining from things of this world, i am not condemning you, but i'm choosing as you choose, to follow what i know to be true." - hopesfall "sometimes those that say the least have the most to say" - dunno the original.. but today -nick gualco"i rip my heart out to give to you"-underoath"will the scars go away in this world i have no placeforgive me Jesus this time i cry" - underoath"another year has gone bytime just took it awayfriends have changedclear skies watched over usbut we've had our share of rainromance still sits untouchedby the water she waits patientlyhoping i'll take her home somedayto think i lost herthat my dreams were her only placebut for her i've learned to waita smile remains on my face knowingGod hold her at nightletting her know i'm on my wayso i'll hold my head highfor love may be a dayi can't saybut tomorrow awaitsbringing me closer to you"- underoath//"God take me because i hate me"//-underoath"be my angel if you can" - the juliana theory"i give you my hand if you'd reach out and grab it, lets walk away from this hell"- the juliana theory"i want to be selfish" - the juliana theory"i should have known better than to breathe you in the first time i held you there for just a second but the mistake was mine" - the juliana theory"you're running out of breath running out of time before every careless word that you utter renders you utterly useless" - the juliana theory"and you kissed me like you meant it" - dashboard confessional"all the best deceptions and clever cover story awards, go to you"- dashboard confessional//"Please send me anything but signals that are mixed cause I can't read your rolling eyes out of touch, are we out of time?"// - dashboard confessional"But for now I'll look so longingly waiting... For you to want me, for you need me, for you to notice me" - dashboard confessional i guess that is enough for now. time for bed?. now that is 1:15 am.ps- rob you were right, hopesfall is definately a christian band

note: last e...

note: last entry was just venting and thinking...so just ignore it all, i am fine. don't worry.and dont feel bad!!!!!!!!!!!

blehthat descr...

blehthat describes me right now.everything is so confusing. i suppose it was a good day all in all. i think college will be good for me though. i dont know. i feel like hitting something really hard. my face hurts.ehhhhhwow, i'm such a mess...i need like to go nuts and beat the crap out of something and cry the whole time i'm doing it. like one of the insane people in a movie.me and underoath will have a nice night together...if i drank, i would be gone right now.so many emotions.good feelings because of some friends and people. stressed because of all the crap i have to do over the next few days. and confused by EVERYTHING becuase i'm so friggin stupid.just punched my wall pretty hard.. that helped, my knuckle is starting to tingle and get red, its good.i need to drive... i need to die.. i need to be alive... i need to fly (dang i am an idiot)arg.screw me.dangit... why am i the way i am.... i honestly dont know... i probably make no sense.its proabably the "end of summer depression".. but seriously my life is good i know it..ahhhhhi wish i had a best freind to call right nowi dont know if i'm mad at you.. maybe i am and i dont want to be, maybe i am just tryng to figure you out. maybe i am stupid.. maybe i just feel awful...and tomorrow morning most of this will have passed. and yet i dont want to go to bed becuase i flourish in the spotlight and i love being the hurt one... right?ha, dont ask me i definately dont friggin know.

toda...

today ended up being a pretty good day. XXX was a pretty entertaining movie. and then some crazy driving mishaps, and the such. but it was a very good day.not at all what i expected but in the end good.but now i am tired, and am hoping tomorrow is better than today, we'll see.

walks in...

walks in the rain are my 2nd favorite thingtoday was good, chilled with dan and rachael alot. good times.

went to the...

went to the eye doctor, it went well. then went with dan to concord to meet joel.. but after an hour of looking for him, we left. then we chilled with rachael for a bit, brought her to work.. picking her up with dan in a little bit. then chillin. then walking i think. kinda bored now though.tonight shoul be good though.

chill...

chilled with dan and rachael tonight. it was fun. tomorrow i am chillin with joel and people. i'm tired, thats all.ps- 1:01am - feeling great. i needed that.